Honesty time

Lately I have really been struggling with wanting to be the best friend I could possibly be and doing absolutely any and everything to please my friends. It's like I am obsessed with the thought of them actually liking me and wanting to talk to me. But then I get so afraid that if I text them or send the, a snapchat they will get so annoyed by me that I have to give them a gift or do something completely inconvenient or unlike me just to please them and so they will want to continue being friends with me. It's stupid right? But I can't seem to shake it. It sickens me that I am so insecure that I go out of my way 99% of the time just to make sure people like me. But I shouldn't have to constantly do that for them to like me, should I? They should like me for me, not the material things I give them. So basically I wrote this for my own benefit. I figured if I read it I would see how stupid I am being. 

A good friend once told me: "just don't let people take advantage of you or try to make everyone happy cause then you won't be." 

So I'm working on it. Thanks for reading this random spill.

Much Love,

Kaitlyn 

Let Me Tell You About My Friend Jake

HI!!!!
I know I haven't posted in a while...my bad. But let me tell you!! Life has been pretty great and my friend Jake has a huge part in that! So I am writing this to tell you about Jake and write a small appreciation post for him. I also hope he doesn't kill me for this.

Okay so let's start out on how I met Jake. One night I was scrolling through my twitter feed in summer of 2013 (I think) and saw him tweet something and took a leap of faith and direct messaged him, and we hit it off pretty much right from the start!!! Jake is the only person I am really able to talk to for hours and never ever ever get sick of.  (he probably gets sick of me though!!) (I know he does lol)  We can go from having a completely hilarious conversation about picture Christmas sugar cookies to talking about how there is pain hidden in our Instagram posts. Jake has been there for me so much these past 2 1/2 years and I cannot begin to tell you how THANKFUL I am for him!! Through thick and thin and every single laugh and every single tear he has been there. He encourages me in every single thing I do and makes sure I never underestimate myself or forget my worth.  I am so thankful for each spontaneous dinner run, the time I got to meet his cat, the time I sent him a Christmas card with a picture of my dog in it, and so many more things!!!  I don't know man, Jake is just a special, one of a kind friend and I hope I never ever lose my friendship with him!! If I did, I would probably cry.

Jake!!
If you're reading this,
1. Thank you for taking the time to read this far in the midst of your insane life
2. Thank you for letting me meet Daphne
3. Thank you for being my friend and always being good to me and responding to me most of the time even though I know I annoy you despite what you say
4. Thank you for the adventures. And the laughs. And the jokes. And the fun times.  I cherish each one of them and hope for many many many more!!!
5. You're the BEST!!!

Anyways, to sum it up, I got pretty lucky with Jake being my best friend! I am super glad I sent that message on Twitter however many years ago. If I hadn't, life would be real real real boring.

Here's a pic of us by the way:

Don't worry, we know it's a bad photo. We're working on that.

Hope you're all lovely!!!!

Much Love,
Kaitlyn